Anilao Beach Party

Hindi pa pala ako nakapagpost ng picture namin sa Beach Party sa Anilao... Kaya gusto ko 'tong pic na 'to kasi sabi nila parang napakagenuine daw ng ngiti ko. Parang sobrang masaya talaga. Hehe.

Sometimes Love Just Aint Enough

Habang nakasakay kami ni Kulas sa napakaalog na Bus galing Philcoa(inihatid kasi namin si Karen), napag-usapan namin ang aking buhay buhay to the tune of I Need You Back ng bus na malakas na sinasabayan ng tibo sa aming likuran. Sabi niya sa akin with punto ng taga Tayabas, "Ay namimiss mo? Ako'y 2 years bago nakalimot". Sagot ko, "Siguro mas namimiss ko yung idea na may kasama ako. Na may partner ako pero not exactly na siya." Nung nagtext sya sa akin, nag-isip naman talaga ako. Gusto kong may nakakasama. Yung may minamahal pero magiging unfair naman ako sa kanya kung makikipagbalikan ako sa kanya dahil lang gusto ko ng kasama sabi nga sa kanta "... but I don't want to use you just to have somebody by my side". Siguro nga mahal ko pa sya pero hindi na kagaya ng dati. Hindi na kasing tindi ng dati at isa pa, masyado ng maraming nangyari. Nakakatakot rin na hindi na namin maibalik sa dati ang mga bagay. Nagbago na ko in some sort at malamang sya rin. Naiisip ko pa rin naman minsan na kamustahin sya. Kung okay lang ba sya. Gusto ko pa rin syang tulungan kung may problema sya bilang kaibigan. Gusto ko pa rin namang maging mabuting magkaibigan kami. Pero siguro hindi pa ngayon. Saka na siguro kapag maayos na ang lahat. Kapag wala ng galit. Sa ngayon I'm just looking forward to loving again (at syempre sa life in general).

Sometimes Love Just Aint Enough

Now, I don't want to lose you, but I don't want to use you
just to have somebody by my side.
And I don't want to hate you,
I don't want to take you, but I don't want to be the one to cry.

And that don't really matter to anyone anymore.
But like a fool I keep losing my place
and I keep seeing you walk through that door.

(Chorus)

But there's a danger in loving somebody too much,
and it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust.
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are.
Baby, sometimes, love just ain't enough.

Now, I could never change you, I don't want to blame you.
Baby, you don't have to take the fall.
Yes, I may have hurt you, but I did not desert you.
Maybe I just want to have it all.

It makes a sound like thunder, it makes me feel like rain.
And like a fool who will never see the truth,
I keep thinking something is gonna change.

(Chorus)

And there's no way home, when it's late at night and you're all alone.
Are there things that you wanted to say?
And do you feel me beside you in your bed,
there beside you, where I used to lay?

And there's a danger in loving somebody too much,
and it's sad when you know it's your heart they can't touch.
There's a reason why people don't stay who they are.
Baby, sometimes, love just ain't enough.

Baby, sometimes, love... it just ain't enough.
Oh, Oh, Oh, No.

Motto Of The Year

Eto raw ang horoscope ko for the year. :)

TAURUS
Much changes quickly this year. Just when you give up, in comes what you desired. You might be amazed at how this pattern repeats itself. (Napapansin ko nga... Hehe.)
You see the power of letting go. (Hmmm... Have I? Maybe)
Friends could be a bit flaky and unpredictable. You are not going to change them. You are better off accepting them. Through acceptance comes transformation.
As a boss, you inspire others. Nevertheless, you exprerience a level of undercutting or deception from employees or co-workers. You probably won't need to do much to end this behavior. Just
let the person in question know you are aware.
Job promotions, community acknowledgment and long-over-due respect from others all come your way in 2009. (Sana! Sana! At samahan na rin natin ng increase sa sweldo. hahaha!)
Creativity might not flow as fast as you would like but, by the end of 2009, you would have nothing to complain about. Romance and relationships with children open up. (Wow! May ganon!)

Motto of the Year: Don't project forward or backward, stay present in the moment.

Roller Coaster

Medyo ilang araw din akong hindi nakapagblog. Bakit? Wala lang talaga akong masulat. I feel empty. Ganon pala. Hindi ka in love at tapos na ang pain. Wala na. Walang natira. Boredom na lang. Minsan nalulungkot ako dahil sa boredom ng pag-iisa. Kahit akala ng iba masayang masaya ako pero pag-uwi ko sa gabi, nilalamon ako ng lungkot. Para akong nawawala. Syet. Emo! Hahaha! Kaya madalas ayokong umuwi kaagad kasi wala naman akong aabutan sa bahay. Sobrang excited na ko sa paglipat namin kasi alam ko, kapag andun na sina Jay-ann, mas may makakausap na ako. Sana makalipat na kami. ASAP.
Dalawang tanong din ang madalas kong marinig. Una, "Hindi na ba talaga kayo magkakabalikan?" at ang pangalawa, "May bago na ba?". Simple lang ang sagot ko, kung meron talaga, eh di sana hindi ako emo emohan ngayon. I hate being alone. I'm looking forward to loving again pero I wont settle for less. Ayokong masaktan ulit ng bonggang bongga. Gusto ko sana yung mamahalin ako at hindi ako sasaktan. Nakakatakot man, pero kapag nagmahal ulit ako, handa pa rin akong ibigay ang buong puso ko. hahaha. yaks. Handa akong iparamdam sa kanya sa abot ng aking makakaya. Wala eh. Ganon ako magmahal.

Bakasyon. Pahinga.

Super excited na ako sa isang linggong bakasyon ko. Actually, 9 days.. Kasi ba naman, ikaw kaya ang sumakay sa roller coaster ng emotion sa loob ng isang linggo ewan ko lang kung hindi ka mapagod. Nakakastress kaya. Kaya I'm really looking forward to a week of peace. naks naman. (tamad lang talagang magtrabaho). Pero honestly, kailangan ko siya. Para makapagpahinga naman ang puso't isipan ko. Hehe. Syet. Drama. :p Dahil holy week naman, isasabay ko na rin ang pagninilay nilay... Sa lahat, enjoy the long weekends ahead.